Sunday, February 12, 2012
happy birthday, vivian!
Would you believe that early in my pregnancy with you, sweet Bumblebee, I'd tell anyone who asked that I wanted a boy? Now, don't find these written words when you're 13 and take tearful offense as 13 year old girls tend to dramatically do ... it's just that, in those days, my head was filled only with thoughts of blue and trucks and sand and all things boy. Your brother, just eight months when the news of your existence came about, was all I knew how to mother. And, I thought, he'd be happiest with a brother to wrestle around the yard with. A duo of dudes. So, I told myself, I wanted a boy. I was convinced, but your daddy knew better .... and all I know is, from the moment your girlhood was pointed out on the ultrasound screen, you stole my heart. You with your spinning dances, your tutu adoration, your shy smiles when you're caught singing in the back seat. And every day, little girl, I'm more in love with your ways, more entertained by your company. Your newfound sense of humor, your enthusiasm for all things Dora related, your little tongue clicks you do when you know you're walking a fine line between cute and naughty. I love the way you instinctively shush and snuggle your baby dolls, with how you opened your first tea set last night and were stirring and pouring like a pro right out of the box. And I can't wait for all that is to come, Vivi. I know there will be ups and downs, but I know this, too - you're loved to the moon and back, every little bit of you.
Happy second birthday, Vivian Jenae.